Monday – the start of the week – was a miserable and tough day for me. I couldn’t shift the horrible feelings and thoughts that I was having. I felt so down in the dumps all day. I was so pleased to see my boyfriend when he came home from work. He knew right away that I’d not had a productive or enjoyable day. He just held me for ages; he is so understanding. I am grateful for that.
Tuesday (yesterday) I woke up feeling exactly the same. I couldn’t shake the negative thoughts or feelings. I never wanted to leave my bedroom or talk to anyone. Perhaps I’m just having a bad week? Monday didn’t start off great; the rest of the week may just be heading in the same direction.
In saying that, I pushed myself yesterday to go out. I forced myself. I received a message from the lovely lady who does my nails, asking me if I would like to come into the salon for a few hours so she could try various eye make up on me. At first, I was going to say no; my plan for the day was to stay in my bedroom and probably read and overthink all day. Then I thought, I should just go. My auntie, who is going through a similar thing as me, always encourages me to go out as much as I can. My anxiety prevents me from doing so, most days, but sometimes I just need to give myself a massive push and force myself to get out there and do things. So I went.
I’m so glad that I did. The lady, Michelle, brightened up my day. She has such a contagious smile and is always so welcoming. She makes me – and all of her customers – feel at home in her salon and always goes out of her way to make you feel special.
Michelle suggested trying glitter on my eyes – for a change. Now, I’ve never worn glitter, anywhere. I’m not a very glamorous girl. I wish I was; I just don’t know how to be. Two months ago I had never even worn eyeshadow in my life – I never knew how to apply it properly. Again, the wonderful Michelle, invited my friend and I up for a make up lesson and showed us both how to apply eyeshadow properly. I was in awe. I had never even attempted to wear it; now I wear it all of the time and I absolutely adore it. So, yesterday, Michelle went for a pink glitter look on me. I’ve never been one for glitter and I never thought in a million years that I would suit pink! I loved it! Once Michelle had finished my eyes, I was so surprised at how much I liked it. I felt a bit glamorous (for the first time ever). It really lifted my spirits and I was so glad I had went out for a couple of hours. It’s amazing what a bit of glitter can do!