I’m sitting in front of my laptop, staring at the blank white screen, I feel like it’s staring right back at me – through me. I have this very strong desire, this overwhelming urge to write, I don’t know what to say. The words will not come. Is this what writer’s block is?
My mind hasn’t been in a very good place at the moment if I’m completely candid with you. I just want someone to talk to, someone to try and understand, someone to empathize – but not to sympathise: Do you know what I mean?
I feel so far away from myself.
I feel like there ain’t another human being in this whole wide world that could possibly understand. Nobody.
I feel like there’s this massive weight on my shoulders: I want someone to lift it off. Someone to tell me it will all be OK; that sort of thing, you know?
I think everyone is better than me. I keep comparing myself to other people and feeling inferior. I feel like I’m seeing everyone around me excel and flourish and then there’s me.
I want better for myself.
I want to stop thinking this way.
I want to wake up one day and just accept myself and that is all: To be happy in my own skin, to get through the day without thinking so negatively, to just be carefree for one day.