Just another ‘down’ day…


Picture taken by me in Ayr last year

It’s a beautiful day outside (which is a rarity in Scotland) and I’ve spent the day cooked up inside.

I’m having a ‘down’ day.

This post is going to be a total contrast in comparison to my previous few posts, where I have been keeping positive and sharing an abundance of good news with you all, this is a whole other kettle of fish all together.

I wasted the whole day. It’s 15:07 and I’m still sat in my pyjamas; I haven’t ate a thing and I’ve barely moved. I have felt mentally and physically exhausted the whole day. I’m so angry with myself as I had loads planned for today. I was going to get up, be productive, go a run, maybe go to the shops and get something nice for lunch, I was going to read a book, work on some college stuff and at least put my face on and get dressed. I couldn’t. I remember at 10am I sat and stared at the door, which was ajar, and it annoyed me for almost two hours and yet I couldn’t bring myself to get up and close it. It’s not laziness. I don’t know what it is. I am aware it’s my Mental Health causing me to lock myself away again but I can’t do anything about it.

My mind has been driving me crazy today – the negative thoughts have been constant and haven’t gave me a break. They have been telling me I’m rubbish at everything, that I’m not going anywhere, that I’ve let myself go, that people don’t like me, that I’m a mess, that I’m an inconvenience and so on and so forth. It’s been draining. Really draining. From 12-3pm I slept. I wasn’t tired but I slept anyway (anything to stop the negative thoughts for a while). I’ve woke up feeling exactly the same. This is why I’m writing this post.

It’s important to know that if you suffer from Depression you are not always going to be constantly low but it’s not something that ever goes away. Let’s just say I’ve been having a good spell lately and that this ‘down’ day has hit me like a ton of bricks. I wasn’t expecting it and that’s why it’s been so difficult. I forgot how to deal with the down days. I didn’t know what to do with myself.  And it’s been dreadful.

There is so much I wanted to do today and I’ve just wasted it. Completely wasted it. I’m so annoyed at myself but there was nothing I could do to try and give myself a push or change my mind-set. Nothing at all.

I hope tomorrow is a bit better for me.



Charlene McElhinney







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  1. March 14, 2017 / 6:36 pm

    There’s always tomorrow to try again and get things done. Sometimes our mind and body need time off, and perhaps it is your body telling you to slow down.

  2. March 14, 2017 / 6:39 pm

    thinking of you x i love your openness and honesty in this post. although they’re horrible, sometimes we just need days like this & that’s okay. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you too x

  3. March 15, 2017 / 1:54 pm

    I’m sorry to hear about your situation. I am like this sometimes, I would have things planned to do but then I end up procrastinating and waste the day away. It would annoy me so much but I also felt that maybe I just need a day off.

  4. March 15, 2017 / 3:22 pm

    It’s always difficult when down days come around, I have these as well. Just keep going though and remember things get better. Even if for a short while, as it can be a bit of a roller coaster.
    If you ever need anyone to speak to I’m always here.


  5. March 15, 2017 / 10:47 pm

    Oh sweetheart I’m so sorry to hear you’re going though this. Please remembee I am always, always here for you whenever you need me ok??? Please know that you are none of those thinga your mind has been telling you that you are. None of them. You are incredible, you have three offers from universities, you’ve self published your own book for goodness sake!!!! That, Charlene is amazing. You did that, you, no-one else ok??? I love you with all of my darling. You are so strong. You amaze me with how well you’re doing & what you have achieved this year. You are my inspiration.
    Love and hugs Sarah xoxoxo

  6. Kayleighzara
    March 16, 2017 / 3:01 am

    I totally feel you girl, I often get down days with my depression and they really are the worst, it makes me feel so down and sluggish. I hope that you’re feeling happier now x

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