I’ve been itching to write a blog post for a few days now. I keep putting it off because I’ve been feeling miserable and I don’t want to swamp you all with my pessimistic thoughts. Yet here I am. Doing exactly that.
I took the photo at the top of this post yesterday. I stood by the water and just admired its tranquillity and watched as the water crashed in and out again; I could have easily sat there all night. There’s something about the water that I can resonate with. We admire the water for its serenity and peacefulness and yet, under the surface, there is an obscure and unknown darkness that nobody really thinks about. Not really. People look at me and see me smiling, laughing, joking and assume I’m OK. Deep down, inside, I am an ocean of perpetual negative thoughts that are drowning me – leading my soul to a watery grave.
I wanted to write this post today to just update you all on what is going on in my life. When I’m feeling down, I often abandon my blog, which is the worst thing for me. My best therapy is writing. I mustn’t let myself stray away from that.
So what’s been going on? I submitted stage 2 of my Graded Unit for college in 2 days ago, I featured in the newspaper 3 times in March, I have been working on a few collaborations with other bloggers’ for their sites, I’m becoming an auntie in two weeks time, I’ve been doing lots of marketing for Melancholy Mind, I went to an applicant day for one of the Universities I received an offer for, I’ve been doing lots of reading and I went to the cinema with my best friend, Lozza, to see Ghost In The Shell (which was surprisingly good, by the way)!
Life has been busy lately. I’ve been trying hard to keep on top of things; I’ve been putting other people (and things) before myself. I need to start making more time for self-care and more ‘me’ time because this is so so so so so important. I want to write a list of things I want to do and start working my way through them. Does anyone else do this? I seem to always get things done when I conjure up a list. That’s what I’m going to do. I’ll write a list. Lists’ are good for the soul.
Anyway, this was a bit of a ramble, and wasn’t a post about anything in particular. And that’s OK. Too many people worry about what ‘content’ is appropriate to post on their blog. My blog is an online journal, an outlet for me to pour my thoughts and feelings online and share them with my readers, but it is also a professional platform where I work with brands, bloggers and feature a variety of different things that completely contrast one another. It is what it is.
I hope you have a good day, whenever you read this, and that I haven’t drained the life out of you.
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