Is it too late to start dancing again?
All through my childhood I religiously went to dance classes; I can’t actually remember when I stopped. Probably when life got in the way. Probably when I joined gymnastics, swimming lessons, basketball, drama and other clubs. I wanted to try different things. Dancing took a back seat. I wish I had never given it up.
When you stop doing something, it takes a hell of a lot to get back in to it again, especially as you get older. You think that turning up at a dance class or a club or whatever is going to be a pretty big fucking deal. You think everyone is going to judge you or laugh at you because you’re not as flexible, you don’t know any of the moves and you just generally don’t know a damn thing anymore. You would be starting all over again. Baby steps. At 21 years old. You’ve not got the body you once had, you’ve aged, gained weight and you are like a fish out of water. You’re completely out of your depth and how could you possibly throw yourself in the deep end like that? Can you?
I’m writing this post, first and foremost, to get it off my chest. I’m writing this post because I want to hear if anyone else took up dancing in their 20s and felt completely out of their comfort zone but stuck at it and fell in love with dancing all over again? I’m writing this post because it’s good to get things out there, right? Sometimes reaching out, dipping your toes in the water, is the motivation and kick up the arse you need to do what you need to do. And I need to dance again.
I don’t know what form of dancing I’d like to get in to. I did a little bit of everything, growing up. When I’m on a night out with my friends I just love to dance. I don’t start busting moves that would impress anyone but I love to close my eyes, move my body, and work up a sweat. I like to lose myself to music. That’s dancing, right? So why am I so scared to turn up at a class and get the ball rolling again. What am I scared of?
Well, not being able to dance. That’s a given. I’m scared of other people watching, judging and mocking. I’m scared of not being as good as the others. I’m scared of making a fool out of myself. I’m scared to dance again.
Oh, but I so badly want to dance again. I keep telling myself I’ll do it and I never do. Time is getting on and I keep beating myself up about it. Please share your stories with me. Please tell me if there’s something you decided to do at a later stage in your life, even though you were shit scared, and tell me why you’re glad you did it. If you know a friend who started dance classes in their 20s or older please, please, please get them to reach out to me. Any words of wisdom or inspiration or advice would be greatly appreciated. Especially because it’s nearly a new year and that could be the perfect time to set myself a new goal. A resolution. Let’s do this.
Will I ever dance again?
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PHOTO CREDIT: To Simon John, who took these photos of me at the Miss Glasgow final.