I’ve been slacking with my blog lately; not just my blog but life in general really. I’ve been feeling like I’m not good enough constantly and not a day goes by where I don’t have negative thoughts.
It’s my summer off from university and I feel like I’m wasting so much time doing nothing. I swore I’d spend my summer reading lots of books, writing, being creative, tidying and sorting out my room but I just can’t bring myself to do any of it. It took every ounce of energy I had to write this blog post today. I’m just not myself and I’m not sure I ever will be again.
I began blogging as a substitute for writing in my journal; I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings with the world. I miss that. I’ve been so caught up in creating content that’s considered ‘blog-worthy’ that I’ve lost the real heart and soul of why I took up this venture. I’m going to write more blog posts just chatting about what I’ve been up to, who I’ve seen and the things I’ve learned.
On that note, let me give you a brief life update. I was shortlisted for an Arts and Entertainment Award at the Scottish Student Journalism Awards and it was a really exquisite (red carpet) event which I thoroughly enjoyed. I never won the award but I had an excellent night and it was such an honour and compliment to be shortlisted. Also, I’ve been spending lots more time with my friend Megan and it’s really lifted my spirits and made me realise how much I’ve been missing a good friend in my life; I’ll be making more time for this girl in the future as she’s one in a million and gets me so much. I’ve got an audition for something exciting this coming Sunday but I haven’t told anyone because to be honest I’m not really sure it’ll go anywhere and also I don’t want anyone to talk to me about it as it’ll put pressure on me. I’m still not sure I’ll even go. I’ll see how I feel on the day.
Life’s been a bit basic lately and nothing much has happened, and people will tell me that’s ok because we all need time to relax and take time out, but I haven’t even been doing that. I’ve been driving myself mad. So, it’s time to get myself back in to the blog. It’s time to do what I love. It’s time to see more of my friends and just get on with life instead of letting it drag me down. Hope you’re all well. Let me know what you’ve been up to!
Until next time,
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