brief update

I’ve been slacking with my blog lately; not just my blog but life in general really. I’ve been feeling like I’m not good enough constantly and not a day goes by where I don’t have negative thoughts. 

It’s my summer off from university and I feel like I’m wasting so much time doing nothing. I swore I’d spend my summer reading lots of books, writing, being creative, tidying and sorting out my room but I just can’t bring myself to do any of it. It took every ounce of energy I had to write this blog post today. I’m just not myself and I’m not sure I ever will be again.

I began blogging as a substitute for writing in my journal; I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings with the world. I miss that. I’ve been so caught up in creating content that’s considered ‘blog-worthy’ that I’ve lost the real heart and soul of why I took up this venture. I’m going to write more blog posts just chatting about what I’ve been up to, who I’ve seen and the things I’ve learned. 

On that note, let me give you a brief life update. I was shortlisted for an Arts and Entertainment Award at the Scottish Student Journalism Awards and it was a really exquisite (red carpet) event which I thoroughly enjoyed. I never won the award but I had an excellent night and it was such an honour and compliment to be shortlisted. Also, I’ve been spending lots more time with my friend Megan and it’s really lifted my spirits and made me realise how much I’ve been missing a good friend in my life; I’ll be making more time for this girl in the future as she’s one in a million and gets me so much. I’ve got an audition for something exciting this coming Sunday but I haven’t told anyone because to be honest I’m not really sure it’ll go anywhere and also I don’t want anyone to talk to me about it as it’ll put pressure on me. I’m still not sure I’ll even go. I’ll see how I feel on the day. 

Life’s been a bit basic lately and nothing much has happened, and people will tell me that’s ok because we all need time to relax and take time out, but I haven’t even been doing that. I’ve been driving myself mad. So, it’s time to get myself back in to the blog. It’s time to do what I love. It’s time to see more of my friends and just get on with life instead of letting it drag me down. Hope you’re all well. Let me know what you’ve been up to!

Until next time,

Charlene McElhinney

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  1. alohalola
    June 5, 2018 / 1:33 pm

    I understand how you feel too well. Once the negative thoughts start buzzing it’s hard to drown them out. Just keep reminding yourself of your self worth and your fab achievements, being nominated for an award is incredible and I hope the audition goes really well!
    And don’t push yourself and stress yourself over being productive every day, that’s what I do too, you’re entitled to days where you rest and recuperate x x x

  2. kattieh
    June 7, 2018 / 6:29 am

    I’m looking forward to reading more on here – it’s so important to take breaks and just have a breather from blogging. It is easy to get caught up in the blogging game of releasing content just to have something to post. I’m so happy that you were nominated for the award! All the best for your audition xx

  3. June 7, 2018 / 7:01 pm

    The very fact you are human means that you are always good enough. Wishing you well Charlene!

  4. June 11, 2018 / 10:51 am

    It happens. There are days when we just don’t feel inspired enough…just do you! Don’t bother about creating content for an audience …creare what makes you happy!
    And congrats on the shortlist!

    Aditi,
    http://www.aditispen.com

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